Topic: Personal Transformation | Posted:July 6, 2016
One of the secrets of Shabbat Chukat is that we have the ability to connect to the Gemar HaTikun, which is the ability to be beyond death. And there is a teaching about this related specifically to the work that we do.
In the prayers of Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur, we speak about a book where all people’s lives, blessings, and negativity are written. It says about this book that every person’s signature is there. But there is a really important and beautiful different understanding of those words, which is that if those who are involved in doing the work for others and for the world - specifically the work of changing our world, in helping to bring a correction for others - do things that aren't right, but their desire is to do the right work, then it’s like they did not do anything wrong.
Hopefully when we ask ourselves why we are doing the work we do, the reason needs to be because we want to do what the Creator wants of us; we are not doing it because we are enjoying it, we are not doing it because it is what makes us feel good. The reason we are doing it is because we ask, always, for the Creator to show us. We need to constantly desire to only want to do what the Creator wants us to do. And then, that is why we do it.
It's important we make that clear to ourselves, because the only way we can merit the Creator showing us what we need to do is if our primary desire is to do what He wants us to do. But even when we are doing the work that we believe with all of our heart is what the Creator wants us to do, how can we be sure that in every moment we are doing exactly what we are meant to be doing, and not making a mistake?
The kabbalists say we don't actually have to be sure in every moment that we are not making a mistake. Because if our ultimate desire is two things – first, to do what the Creator wants us to do, and second, to know that the overarching direction of what we’re doing must be something that has to do with the correction of the world and others - then if we make mistakes and fall, it is not considered a mistake.
Therefore, if our desire is pure and we are working with our tikkun, even if we do things that are wrong, it's not a problem, and it will not be counted as a negative action. When a person is focused on bringing a correction to others and the world, if the purpose and desire of their work is to bring us closer to the Gemar HaTikun, then even if he makes a mistake or falls, it is not a problem. For an individual who is involved in doing the work to correct the world and others, as long as they are coming from a pure place and not from a place of ego or selfishness, mistakes that are made are not considered negative actions.
It says the secret of the signature of every man, or Adam, in the book on Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur is that no person can ever receive negativity back in their lives from any negative action that they have or haven’t done that they were meant to do. What does this mean? The Zohar explains that the Aleph Dalet Mem is the acronym for Adam, David, and Mashiach; the word “Adam” represents the soul of Mashiach, and in order for any person's negative actions to have negative repercussions in their lives, King David, the Light of Mashiach, has to agree that person was failing and is deserving of negativity to come back to him. But he will only sign it if a person is not involved at that time in his life in the work that is meant to bring about the revelation of Mashiach.
So, only if King David, soul of Mashiach, agrees to judgment, can it come to a person. And King David would never agree to judgment for a person who is involved in the work of bringing about the revelation of the Gemar HaTikun. If a person who is involved in awakening the consciousness of the end of pain, suffering, and death, and is coming from a pure place makes mistakes, then they are not considered mistakes.
But there is another side to this, which is to really be sure that's what our lives are about. If the way we focus our lives, if our singular desire and request is only that we want to do what the Creator wants us to do - whether it is easy or difficult, or enjoyable or painful – and then secondly to that, we do everything that we can to be part of bringing the Light, the understanding, the consciousness of the Gemar HaTikun to this world, then even the mistakes we make are not mistakes.